So A and I have been wanting to get a dog home for the longest time. Finally we made up our minds to get one and call it our own. The moment this decision was announced - critics jumped on us. Well wishers - that is what they are. Well... if you wish well for us - then wish well... hope that when we get the dog home we can bear that responsibility and do a good job - really - just wish us well for once!
If you are expecting us to fail and give up the moment it starts getting difficult - then you really have no faith in what we do - and no trust in what we promise to do.
So - now the story is - I am even more determined to bring the dog home - more because I want to prove you wrong - for all the times that you doubted us. It is never enough - no matter how much you prove yourself - there are always those who peek from behind the bushes and wait for you to fail - just to pounce on you then and tell you "I told you so". They never come around to ask - "how can we help"...
They have doubted all the time - no matter what we do - doubt is always the first reaction. I have never heard them saying they believe we can do it. It breaks my heart every time - yet I try to do everything right just to get them to believe. But it is too much to ask.
Note to self - remember never turn to these people for help - because all you will see if their backs because they will be the first to turn away and start walking...
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Friday, December 12, 2008
Keeping count...
Remember the good stuff... remember the positive things...
Well then we will never learn, will we? Everything that is good has a bad side... its just like two faces of the same coin. Can we just look at one side and not bother about the other? The coin will always have two faces whether we like it or not. So - the better way to think (according to me is) - know there is or was some bad side to this good side that we are in now...
Everything that goes up - comes down... only then does it go up again. So this is my attempt to keep track of everything that wasn't so nice/positive/good in 2008. Now that it is coming to an end... hopefully 2009 will bring better brighter days.
The not so good...
2008:
1. took Dimma away from us: My 96/97 year old maternal grandmother. She was bundle of sweet. I still remember the distinct smell of her - a mixture of paan and zarda. She was a very straight forward woman. Never fearing to tell the truth. An ray of hope in the right direction, for all of us who are quickly becoming part of this hypocritical society. As we grow old - memories from our childhood start to fade. There is so much I still remember about my childhood with Dimma. I will document that in another blog post - some other day - and do justice to the memories.
2. took a little part of me away: If all went well - who knows where we would have been. We would probably have been riding high in parenthood heaven. But - that was not meant to be - so it didn't. Let's not dwell on it. This is meant as a reminder of what was and a hope for what might come to be.
3. took A's Dadima from us: I didn't know her too well - just the short visits we had when we went back home. But she was a strong women I heard. She fought till the end and was lucky to have her sons with her in her last days. May she rest in peace.
4. took a few other people - who we didn't really know - but they were important to some of our friends. May we never forget them.
The wonderful:
1. A's cousin found a place for herself in Boston. This is extra special because - I know A loves to have people and family around. Seeing him happy makes me happy. The past few months have introduced me to a life where its just not the two of us anymore - and I have loved it.
2. My childhood friend came to visit us from London - only for 3 days... it was a short trip - but it felt good. After such a long time to just sit around and talk and talk and talk .. till it was time for her to check in for her flight!
3. A turned 30! We didn't do too much to mark the occasion but it is sure worth remembering. Maybe I will do something special for him next birthday.
4. A new opportunity presented itself to A. He got a chance to diversify his skills - which will get us closer to India sooner! So that is definitely a good thing.
5. We settled on a house in India. Finally! So - if all goes well... we will have a place to stay.
That was all I could think of so far... will amend this list as I remember.
Well then we will never learn, will we? Everything that is good has a bad side... its just like two faces of the same coin. Can we just look at one side and not bother about the other? The coin will always have two faces whether we like it or not. So - the better way to think (according to me is) - know there is or was some bad side to this good side that we are in now...
Everything that goes up - comes down... only then does it go up again. So this is my attempt to keep track of everything that wasn't so nice/positive/good in 2008. Now that it is coming to an end... hopefully 2009 will bring better brighter days.
The not so good...
2008:
1. took Dimma away from us: My 96/97 year old maternal grandmother. She was bundle of sweet. I still remember the distinct smell of her - a mixture of paan and zarda. She was a very straight forward woman. Never fearing to tell the truth. An ray of hope in the right direction, for all of us who are quickly becoming part of this hypocritical society. As we grow old - memories from our childhood start to fade. There is so much I still remember about my childhood with Dimma. I will document that in another blog post - some other day - and do justice to the memories.
2. took a little part of me away: If all went well - who knows where we would have been. We would probably have been riding high in parenthood heaven. But - that was not meant to be - so it didn't. Let's not dwell on it. This is meant as a reminder of what was and a hope for what might come to be.
3. took A's Dadima from us: I didn't know her too well - just the short visits we had when we went back home. But she was a strong women I heard. She fought till the end and was lucky to have her sons with her in her last days. May she rest in peace.
4. took a few other people - who we didn't really know - but they were important to some of our friends. May we never forget them.
The wonderful:
1. A's cousin found a place for herself in Boston. This is extra special because - I know A loves to have people and family around. Seeing him happy makes me happy. The past few months have introduced me to a life where its just not the two of us anymore - and I have loved it.
2. My childhood friend came to visit us from London - only for 3 days... it was a short trip - but it felt good. After such a long time to just sit around and talk and talk and talk .. till it was time for her to check in for her flight!
3. A turned 30! We didn't do too much to mark the occasion but it is sure worth remembering. Maybe I will do something special for him next birthday.
4. A new opportunity presented itself to A. He got a chance to diversify his skills - which will get us closer to India sooner! So that is definitely a good thing.
5. We settled on a house in India. Finally! So - if all goes well... we will have a place to stay.
That was all I could think of so far... will amend this list as I remember.
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